Archive | October 2015

Moment Lost

What she was sure of, was that she has been on that road before.

But was she sure she wanted to embark on it again?

This was the question not only in her mind, but everyone’s.

It didn’t matter to her at all – that was a lie she kept telling herself – the lie she had eventually came to believe.

She knew staying will mean disappearing into his world – the world she had no saying in.

So she stood in the middle of nowhere transfixed as her world slowly disappeared into oblivion.

It was either a step forward or one backward.

So she took a step…

Absent Love (My Way Back to You)


The door I closed on you

Was not meant to be forever

In my quest to find myself

I lost myself

The trail that leads back to ‘I’

Is no more

You held me in your caring arms

But I still searched for you

You stood there

With tears in your eyes as you called out my name

But the road called for me too

I yearned for more than I got from you

I was born a dream-chaser

But I could never settle for any

Once, you were my dream

A dream that I reached

With need to leave behind

Now I stand here

With my heart in my hand

As I reach out to you in the hope that

Your smile will wipe away my sins

I learnt to love you in your absence

But my love cannot fill the void you left in search for better love

I was slaved by the world’s view of perfect love

I questioned the shape of your heart

I demanded your soul

I implored your eyes to see things unseen

Petitioned your ears to hear what I held within

You found your wings

The wings that I had cut when your heart still belonged to me

You learnt to fly again

I should have carried you when you needed me

I crashed your world to build mine

You believed in us – I believed in fate

In my euphoria, judging you was the only way

My night dreams don’t belong to me anymore

Nightmares have become my uninvited companions

Maybe just maybe you will allow me to once again stand on your spotlight

Maybe you will let me to walk back into your dreams at night

I created my own agony,

I became cold to your hands – I froze you out

As I walk toward you, all I want to know is,

Do you remember the time you held me in your arms

Let’s go back in time and find us again


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Stranger in the Mirror

I don’t know…

Maybe the mirror lies too
For the person who stares back at me
I do not recognise
Her tears don’t fall on the ground like mine
My tears have turned into a stream that forever
Waters the dark forest that watches over my every step

The person in the mirror still holds her soul
Mine I sold it – though I have no memory of the buyer
But what I remember is the ecstasy that lasted briefly
Had I known how empty it is without one,
I’d have probably saved a few tears to soak my mouth with
In time of the emotional-drought

Yes, the mirror lies too
For sense is not made in the smiles shaped
In the eyes of the person who stares back at me
I stand in front of the mirror
With my last wish in black and white
As I walk toward the door that will close
My path in this world
My last prayer is that the Lord
May turn all my past joys into a rainbow
As He welcomes me in His Kingdom