‘We’ Of You and I

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I got issues

And so do you

You got to take me

You got to love me

This me

And not the me that they want me to be

 


Our love is not for everyone

We are dreamers and we belong together

We fought

We laboured

We hurt

Just to keep it alive

 


You got touch these scars

You got accept the flaws I come with

Our tears we keep contained

Just for the drought times

No one understands this love

But we got to keep going

 


We reckless

We be loving untimely

We find ourselves in the ‘we’ of you and I

My heart is too strong for anyone else

My nights are too dark for somebody else but you

Just promise one thing

Promise me no promises

For our love is too fragile to survive broken truth

 

The Anchor

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I will be there

I will be your strength when you’re weak

I will be your eyes when you’re blind

When your back is against the wall

Know that I will never let you down

There is no need to fear

For I am your anchor

Love will make us stronger

My love got you

It got us


 

Hurricane may come

In the midst of the tempest

I will be your strong point

When the chains wear you down

I will set you free

Have no shame

For I am your anchor

My love got you

It got us


 

Through the fire

When the haunting ghosts rise up

I will be your shelter

When your faith is gone

And you face the chaos

And disgrace is a death-kiss away

Stand tall and make trust your friend

For I am your anchor

Love will make us stronger

Love will make us stronger

My love got you

It got us


 

When the vultures smell your vulnerability

When they circle in to pound

And you are too weak to stand the fight

I will be your refuge

I will be by your side

I will storm it all for you

For I am your anchor

Love will make us stronger

My love got you

It got us

This anchor is here to stay!

A Mother’s Nightmare

She stood ash faced as the casket took him six feet under

She wished the pieces could have landed in different places

But she believed it was destiny

Her Mama always told her, “When Destiny decides your fate, you never argue with her.”

Somehow deep inside, she wished she had put a fight against this Destiny being

Then maybe, just maybe her son will still be breathing this air


She looked at all the ‘mourners’ who have come to pay their last ‘respect’ to the deceased

A storm of emotions rose within her

She knew most of them came to confirm that indeed he was dead

For everyone standing around his grave will not spend a nickel-worth of respect to this Dead

They did not know him as much as she did – before…

Before he got possessed by bad spirits

He was once a good-natured, kind child


This morning she saw that sweet child he once was

As he rested down in the coffer

She was happy that financial-wise, she did not hold back in making sure that he looked respectable

The grey designer suit she bought him suited him so much

That hope was placed in her heart as she expected to see him opening his eyes at that moment

But a she planted a kiss in his cold cheek; she knew that the only journey left to their final meeting place was hers


As she threw a handful of dirty or ‘dust to dust’ as the holy man called it

She heard the distinctive sound of the siren announcing the arrival of new guests

She counted three policemen as they make their way to the mourners

She held her breath and nodded

She was ready


You see, a parent burying a child is never a good sight

But a mother burying a child who died by her own hands is every parent’s worst nightmare ever

As the police led her away, she knew by then that no one will ever understand

They wouldn’t understand why she did it

But she had to do it – to guarantee a place in Heaven for her wayward child

Yes, that’s how much she loved the child she brought to this appalling earth

Did they think it was easy to pull that trigger?

She cast her eyes to the heavens as she said a short prayer for the souls her son and his gang took forceful from this earth

The last prayer she said was for her son – may the One above keep him safe until tonight

Yes, tonight she will reunite with her real son

The son she carried in her womb

Not the monster that greedily took from the poor,

The monster that left so many homes widowed and fatherless

The monster that she took down with three bullets

Bang! Bang! Bang!

Exiled Mind

I woke up this morning thinking how bad my life was

Oh the things I could change if I had choice

My bed needed new sheets

I didn’t like the taste of my coffee

I hated my job

The coat didn’t match the colour of my eyes

I could go on about how unfair life was

Till I saw her

 


With one child on her back and one holding to the helm of her skirt for dear life

As she rushed pass me

Tears of regrets and years of bad choices running down her beautiful face

Her tiny feet had dried up rivers going all places

The lines on her face betrayed the beauty she once was

Her ashen face deceived those it can about her time in this earth

The shoes on her feet were one with the dust beneath her soles

They had all their earthly belongs on their backs

 


She stared straight through my soul with her probing eyes

Silently she questioned my ungratefulness

And with shame, I walked away…

Lovemaking and Warmaking

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As he whispered my name into my ears

I was lost to this world

His hands moved slowly from my tiny waists

Smoothly climbing up to my erect two towers

As I slowly moaned

He pulled my hair with his strong hand

And planted his wet lips unto my trembling ones

He slowly lifted my chin and

He said, ‘Be mine for the rest of my life.’

I replied, ‘Isn’t this the rest of our lives?’

‘I love you girl’ he declared

And I was in heaven

He took his time to massage my soft, velvet brown skin with the scented soap

As I drown in the shower rain

The passion was our meal

No one owned us

Ours was love of hunger

Love so exclusive, love so obsessive

Love so sweet, disturbing and dark

 

I was a bad thing to him

He looked good to me

As we set each other’s world on fire

My small hands dug their way into his flesh as

I welcomed his bite on my neck with delight

He leisurely laid me down on the hard floor

Tightening the scarf on my wrists

He quenched all my sensual needs with physical pain in the right places

A slow and fast-paced love we gave to one another

Our worlds collided and we couldn’t stop this thing we had started

We’d lost control and we loved every bit of it

 

My body, my heart yearned for him

As he teased me with his skilful tongue

He communicates well with all parts of my body

He owned me – he possessed my being

As I felt free in this out of the ordinary time

The only time my mind allowed another being

To completely tame it!

It’s Not Goodbye…

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All words lost between us

I could pretend that everything is alright

I could turn my eyes from your lies

If only to hold you close for a little while

I hate knowing the truth

How do I stop loving you?

How can I make you love me again?


 

 

I know you have chosen her over me

But the truth is

Her smile belongs to me

Her laughter should find its home in my heart

Her nights besides you are my nights

Her reality is my dream

How do I stop loving you?

How can I make you love me again?


 

As the night waves us goodbye

My heart sinks in

As I know the kiss of the first sunray

Brings with it your goodbye

Maybe you will stay one more night

Maybe you will love me once again

How do I stop loving you?

How can I make you love me again?


 

I will always be here if your heart ever

Needs home

I knew from the start your love was a lie

But it was a lie I was prepared to live with

But your packed suitcase exposes the truth

How do I stop loving you?

How can I make you love me again?


 

I don’t believed in miracles

But now as I watch your love fades away

I keep hoping for one

The pain is too much to carry

You are my fairy-tale

Only your love will set me free

From the anguish I’m going through

How do I stop loving you?

How can I make you love me again?


 

My friends keep on telling me

You’re wrong for me

They say I deserve better

But you’re all I crave

The pain of loving someone

Who keeps on rejecting you was never my intention

I refuse to let you go

Forget the give and take – I’m willing to just give!

How do I stop loving you?

How can I make you love me again?


 

You say the touch of bodies is not enough

Love is more than lovemaking

And I thought our steamy episodes were all for making love

For creating love

You say love is two souls that connect

But why should it be her soul?

How do I stop loving you?

How can I make you love me again?


 

I hope she loves you the way I do

I hope she lets your body to rhyme with hers whenever

Your desire arises

But for tonight I just want us to be one

My flesh to your flesh

My desire to your desire

My need to your need

Soul to soul

So tell me, how do I say goodbye to you?

How do I stop hoping?

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Compromised Love (Unintended Breakup)

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Set me free

Set my soul free

Quench the burning feeling in my stomach

I know you don’t mean to hurt me

But somehow you keep letting me down


 

Your love is all I ask for

I will hold this world on my shoulders

Just to hear you say you still love me


 

I might not be enough in your eyes

But letting go has never been my strongest trait

The hold you have over my heart is unexplainable


 

The heavens testify on my behalf

The world without your love to wrap around me

Is the world I don’t intend to see

Just love me enough to extend my next breath


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I don’t want our cherished memories to become my nightmares

I don’t want to make love to your ghost anymore

I can’t keep on kissing your face echo

I want the real thing

And you are the real thing


 

Call me unreasonable

But how can I be reasonable when my heart is in pieces

How can I be fair-minded when my lungs are about to burst from lack of air

Logic has no place here

Because thinking about you all daylong is my self-preservation


 

My love for you has no beginning nor end

My knees will never tire from kissing the ground

Just to see your smile again

The smile meant only for me


 

Your love gives me the strength to face another day

I know my desperation shows my weakness

But I don’t need sympathy from anyone

I just need your love

Your burning love


 

Your are the love of my life

But I can see the hesitation in your eyes

You question it all

And the answer to all is that no one will ever love you the way I do


 

Our love is not some Physics experience

So never ask for your ‘space’ or your ‘time’

This heart is too weak to accept that


 

All I ask from you is to have mercy

For this girl will keep on coming back to you

Each time you push her away

Goodbye was not part of our ‘Hello’

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